I've had a good day today. Generally its been good, and in terms of K its been good too.
Work offered some challenges today. I'm covering for Life Service, and its not too tough for me to handle, but its about a million times more demanding than the normal day to day drag at Barcodia. By the way, Barcodia is actually not the name of the company I work for, but I'll announce that after I quit. Job satisfaction is related to mental effort exerted, I'm sure. Today I had to think more than normal, and I'm actually happier than normal.
From the smokeroom:
CHIP: "Hey Braces, you coming for a smoke?"
BRACES: "No, thank you."
ELANORE: "We've both given up. You too?"
B: "Oh fuck it, allright then."
C: "I don't drink coke or eat chocolate anymore."
EL: "Everbody's quitting. It just depends what they're giving up."
B: "I don't know why. Everybody should have a vice."
C: "Do you think modesty could be considered a vice?"
EL: "You're not modest."
B: "I don't think so, Chip."
C: "What have I got to be modest about?"
EL: "Aye, exactly."
C: "Sometimes I think I'm too ambitious. Like I have unachievable aims. Is dreaming too much a vice?"
EL: "God, you sound like [My Boss]. He's a wanker too."
C: "Or like the start of some boring novel."
B: "Yes Chip. A paperback."
Skinny Fester, a bald gay guy I work with, was eager to hear about the job application I'd made on Friday. Its for a news broadcaster, at a regional desk. Somebody else's interest in the minutae of your life is villifying, as if it is worthy of discussion. I like Fester. I almost suggested that he should attend his Halloween bash as Uncle Fester, but then decided he doesn't have the gut for it. Then again, if the Doc from Back to the Future can pull off the role then maybe it isn't outside Skinny's range. I told him of my news heavy plans in advance preperation for the interview that I might not get. And he asked to be kept informed. What a nice guy.
TV has filled my head tonight. I watched local news on one channel, and then switched to another for a second dose of the same. Then I moved to Channel 4 for their fantastic national and international bulletin afterwards. So far that's two hours of news, not counting website watching. Then a documentary with Jon Snow about the contributions made to politicians in America came on, and I watched that too. Fascinating stuff, Kerry and Bush as bad each other, so the programme suggested. Then a history show about the build up to 1066, the end of the Anglo-Saxon era. Also very interesting.
I know that to describe a show as interesting or fascinating without saying why is frustrating. But the key thing is that I've really enjoyed the TV, and what the shows were isn't really that important.
And its been a good day in terms of K too. I think that last night's very brief conversation about the radio really helped. Recently its been very much a case of K talking reluctantly, with the over-arching sense that she thinks its bad to talk too much. Last night she called after the no show, and it was me who brought the chat to a friendly, but swift, end. I said "I'll speak to you during the week, or the week after." and then we said our goodbyes. The fact that I said to stop talking is sort of satisfying, as its easier to uphold a promise if it feels like its your own idea.
Tonight the idea of getting in touch with her hasn't crossed my mind. Even now, as I describe it, it doesn't seem like an option. Now that's a good sign, isn't it?
Braces is gonna hook me up with some more pot soon too. Got some free Cherry flavoured cigar rolling papers from work today, which must be made for joints. They must be!
The start of a good week! I can tell.